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who is this.

honestly this is the weirdest feeling in the world. i feel so worthless. i always feel worthless but lately everything just been getting worse. i had so much emotional pain that i’ve bottled up and i now feel the pain physically. i just hate this. i feel so alone. everything is getting worse. i keep screwing even more things up. i really hate myself. i just wish i wasnt such a screwup. i ruined everything for the people i cared about. i really have an odd way of showing i care. i just break everything i get a hold of. i feel awful. nobody deserved to be treated like that way i’ve treated them. i don’t know what’s gotten into me. i just wish this would all end. i wish i could take so much back. but now i’m left alone and maybe it’s better this way. but this overthinking is just killing me. i dont have the energy to do anything anymore. i just wanna roll up into a ball and cry. but i know i can’t because i just can’t even cry anymore. why am i like this? i just hate this so much and it really scares me. please make this end. i dont even know what to do. i hate everything.